Thursday, November 18, 2010

sex with someone else at 27

Friend: I did something unimaginable yesterday. *groans*

Me: What did you do? *while huffing and panting in the heat to the nearest and cheapest lunch place around the office*

Friend: You know that girl I told you about right...

Me: Yeah... *distracted - thinking about eating chicken rice with chicken breast.. or should I go for the curry mee?*

Friend: I don't know how it happened, but I slept with her.

Me: WHAAAATTTT?!?!?!? *all thoughts of chicken rice fly out of the mind*

We're not talking about some long-time savvy Casanova who breaks girl's hearts. We're talking about a very dear boy, somebody who couldn't cheat, prided himself on NOT cheating, someone whom I thought of over the years as the world's most loyal man.

Well at least during the period when we used to date each other.

You must be wondering what sort of nut still chats with her ex on stuff like sleeping with other people, but we're still really close friends. Nothing else.

Me: Oh god. where was it?

Friend: In my new house.

Me: Isn't your new house not ready yet, still renovating?

Friend: Yeah. Still got on-going works.

Me: You... you... *speechless* in a unit which is being renovated?!? You mean no bed!!?!?

Friend: *groans again* yessssssss..... don't ask.

Me: No I don't want to know. *yes i really DON'T want to know*

Friend: So I don't know if I should tell my girlfriend.

Me: Well, very simple - if you still love her, stop seeing the other girl and work hard to MAKE IT WORK. Telling her might ease your guilt, but may cause her worse pain. On the other hand, if you don't love her enough, then you might have to consider breaking her heart sooner rather than later.

Friend: I'm not this kind of person! I don't sleep with anyone!

Me: *raises eyebrows* *took him this long to realize people are human after all, and have temptations*

Friend: Oh noooooo.... *almost wails*

Me: Just don't do anything these few days. I can't talk much, heading to the airport. Meet up next week to discuss, okay? Meantime don't do anything stupid, like sleep with her again.

Friend: Haihhhh.....

Me: By the way, was it good?

Friend: Yes.. she was good.

Me: OH-KAY. I don't want to know. *wish I didn't ask*
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In Singapore for the 2nd time in 2 weeks. Travelling alone is lonely. Eating dinner alone is lonely. 11pm and I haven't done any prep for my presentations tomorrow, but I'm bone dead tired.

Would give anything to be boarding that flight to nowhere right now.

Monday, November 15, 2010

travel ain't as cracked up

Sitting here at Kota Kinabalu International Airport grabbing the free airport wi-fi, waiting for the person holding my boarding pass to arrive so I can get back to the gates for the flight back to KL.

Been in KK for - 5 hours. And all I've seen is the airport. This is getting to be a trend. At least last week's jaunt to SQ's analyst briefing involved a 5 minute cab ride out of the airport.

So unless its an overnight trip, travelling for work on a corporate card ain't as cracked up as I used to think it would be. 11 months and I'm jaded. That's just great.

Anyway, back to why I'm in KK. Was invited for the maiden flight of MAS B737-800 to KK and naturally I was excited, given I like being the first to try anything out. Had a great time fiddling with the touchscreen in-flight panels throughout the 2 and a half hour flight. It wasn't til I landed in KK that I realized that the new 737 was going on to Haneda and I would be boarding one of MAS' old planes back for the return trip.

And you know how it is with their old planes, no inflight anything. Sitting for 2 plus hours staring at the old plane seat in front of me?

And instead of going on the organized city tour (which I heard went to Karambunai), I had to stay back in the business lounge reviewing reports and replying emails, otherwise it would mean a late night in the office, something which I'd forgo 10 Karambunai trips for.

PS - The book store at the airport is a rip-off! RM37.50 for Glamour? East Malaysians must be freaking loaded.

On another note the new Firefly ad is quite endearing - the one of the Orang Asli dude grinning saying "Kamek nait belon Firefly".

So cute.

Sunday, November 7, 2010

theres a fine line..

... between a wild time, and a flat line.

We had the major of all major bust-ups yesterday. I'd been feeling really exhausted and stressed and powerless about all the work that's piling up, the family issues, etc. It got to the point where being his girlfriend topped off the whole trapeze of perfection that I was trying to balance on.

I wasn't being bitter, nor do I think it a *shudder* duty, but there really seems to be a whole lot going on in my life right now. So cue Saturday lunch when we were supposedly having a stress-free meal after I'd gotten a piece written and out of the way, when I brought up the subject of that piece of work again inadvertently, feeling quite nervous about Monday, because I have to make a presentation on it and I really felt like I hadn't covered all my bases.

He gave a terribly exasperated sigh and said something along the lines of forget it or will you drop it or something. I just lost it.

Felt like if he, of all people, didn't realize how hard I had to work to get by, then really, what was the point of it all?

I used to think I'd be fine with a relationship where the couple could discuss work or strategize over lunch or in between hugs and go out and conquer the freaking world together. Not to be bigheaded, but could you imagine two "me's" in a couple?

We'd be running billion-dollar companies, backing each other in the boardroom, travelling the world for meetings but running off in the middle of it to ride a camel in Egypt or hunt for antiques in Istanbul.

I still wouldn't mind that - but he does mind, I guess.
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Somebody I know started a blog - not to rant about their toenails or the color of the moss on their walls (though it seems like I am guilty as charged here too).. but to write about her breastfeeding and what not experience from her giving birth to bringing up the child.

Harh????

I wish I had that much free time to natter on about how eating cabbage is not good for Junior cos it gives him tummy tum tum problems. It is amazing the different paths we took - she probably will never understand why I kill myself over this job, nor will I understand her obsession with NOT eating cabbage. The kid won't die, come on. Right?

I don't know.

I can tell you which option looks better in the UEM-Sunrise deal, though. But I think it wouldn't matter when the kid screams at 3am from too much cabbage.

the story of how I got bought

I think I am destined to be in this job forever. Typing this post on my brand new spankingly silver and shiny Vaio netbook which represents a very successful attempt to buy me over.

It all started when I marched into the boss's room with my exhaustion for all the world to see and frankly detailed out why I am pretty sure I will not be able to make it past these 3 weeks, with all the work that's piling up before Tokyo.

He calmed me down and sent me out of the room, but that very night he bought the netbook and asked if I wanted it - like hello? I'm using a 5 year old Dell, of course I want it! Anyway that very night, I worked til midnight. Ha ha.

So that's the story of how I got bought. Damn evil boss I have.

Plus the next morning I got assigned a temp assistant.

Lest I got accused of favouritism, the other two team members got a GPS and a Mont Blanc pen. Yeah, they're guys.

If this goes on, I'll end up 3 years down the line with a fancy Audi TT and all the best gadgets in the world, but with zero soul.

Lol.