Definitely.. Maybe

Reading Superhero's post on how people desire some form of rhythm to their lives brought about thoughts about the opposite - how random meetings, chance encounters and one-off experiences leave us with a multitude of possibilities, many forking of paths. For some, it's not so much actually pursuing every possibility that they want, but the freedom of knowing that they could do it anytime.

Knowing you have a choice helps you do the right thing at the right time, even if it isn't something you want to do at the moment. I used to think I was losing out if I didn't go chasing after every dream - I think I'd be in a mental institution by now if I wanted to be everything, do everything.

I'm pretty clear about the path I'm on, where I want to go. Though I'd be lying if I said I didn't think of what's out there. But somehow, knowing that I can have it / do it whenever I choose to, suddenly renders me indifferent to whether I take that path or not.

That's the litmus test of how important a thing / person is to you. If you know you're going to be able to do it / have it tomorrow, would you still want it as bad? If yes, then pursue it, hold on to it, never let it go.

Things I Definitely Maybe Want To Do.. But Have Shelved For the Moment In Pursuit of What's More Important

1) Teach English in the middle of nowhere, like Kazakhstan, for a year.

2) Be a fruit-picker / assistant in a rural farmhouse in a small village in France / Italy for 6 months

3) Work in Melbourne and make weekend trips in my sports convertible to Mornington Peninsula and surrounds

Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying give up on your dreams. Just know what's important for the moment and do it. No need to worry about when you're going to do the other things on your list, because they will happen if they're important enough. I'm hardly spiritual, so I won't say trust that God will do what's best. But this is based on some basic cosmic belief in a higher power that all things eventual.. will eventuate.

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On a lighter note, I've crossed over international borders for my job, in the first month of work. It was just Singapore, for a corporate event on a yacht (hello linen pants, bare feet and nautical striped tote) but that's faster than the comparable period in my first job.

I've met new people, seen what I can do, what I will be doing. I know I'll do some over the next few months, others I might never do (like understand what it is that derivatives traders do). So am I open to the possibility that anything can happen?

Definitely.. maybe.